Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Stick Me Baby

This morning did not start out the way I intended.

My appointment at the Blood and Cancer Center was slated for bright and early at 8am. M. was planning to come with me to hold my hand, and Miss O. was heading to daycare, since children aren't really welcome there. I thought I had it all planned out, and then we ALL slept in. As I rolled out of bed, I looked at the clock and couldn't believe my eyes. It was 7:30, and we were all still in bed. Oops.

Somehow, we managed to only be about 5 minutes late for my appointment. First up, getting weighed. Yeah, add some more insult to injury. Then blood work, my goodness, I'm really starting to feel like a pincushion. Like most busy medical offices, I finally saw a doctor after about an hour. I had to meet with one of the doctors, before they would administer the methotrexate. Dr. G. was a kind, older man with an accent. He kept asking me if I was sure that I had 5 previous pregnancies and losses. Oddly, I never cried. It was almost like I've run out of tears. After much discussion, he set out to do a quick physical. M. and I had a hard time not laughing when he pulled out a flashlight, the kind you would find in a toolbox, and shined it in my eyes. He then told me to follow the light with my eyes. How could you not, I thought. Then he asked to see my teeth? Eh, at least he was kind.

From there, I was moved to the chemo room, where I was given an oral pill to help with nausea, as the nurse got the 2 shots ready. One for each hip. Equal opportunity, I suppose. Ouch, they stung more than I remembered. And that was it. All that buildup for 2 shots.

I've spent the majority of the afternoon on my couch with the heating pad, trying to stave off the stiffness and ache I feel creeping in. I'm drinking lots of fluids, as suggested, and catching up on what's on my DVR.

Now we wait.


  1. I am so sorry you are going through this... I can't imagine what you are feeling. I am glad you are laying on your couch (i am on mine, too)... stay there as long as you can.

    I hope the side effects miss you completely, and you are feeling back to yourself, whatever that may be, very soon.


    Thanks for the encouargement with the OHSS BS. That is what I am going to start calling it!

  2. I hope your side effects are minimal. Hang in there!

  3. Even though it was only two shots, they aren't for fun things.

    I hope that the medicine doesn't have too many side effects for you. Many hopes for a quick healing!

  4. Oh, God. I am so sorry that you are going through this.

    There are no words.

    I'm here.


  5. Here waiting with you, too. Hugs.

  6. (((HUGS))) I am so sorry. I appreciate your sense of humor in all of this. I also get the not crying thing. There are times after all we have been through where I can tell our story or get through what I would think I would find very difficult with little emotion. Sometimes I think we just become numb to it. Other times the tears won't stop coming. Anyway, I am proud of you and hope that this part of your journey goes by quickly and without too many unpleasant side effects. Hang in there. You continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.

  7. I'm so sorry. I hope the heating pad and rest are helping a little. Thinking of you...

  8. Oh, the waiting is horrible. I hope this is over for you as quickly as it can and that the side effects are minimal. You are very much in my thoughts and I hope you get some rest. I wish there was something more useful I could say :(

  9. So sorry Amy, not much longer and you will be done. Then back to daily life as you knew it before. Hang in there hun. If you need to talk just pm me. Love ya'

  10. So sorry that you're going through all of this. I hope you don't have too many side effects. Get lots of rest.


  11. Are you sure you had "5 previous pregnancies and losses". Hmmm, guessing that isn't the sort of thing that will slip your mind.

    Take care of yourself.


  12. fuck. I know this is what needed to be done, but still, I just wish this isn't the way it ended. You really went through the wringer (again) this time. I hope the stiffness you felt didn't end up the way you are feeling today.

    a bajillion ~hugs~ to you today.

  13. I am so sorry! I'm sending you so much warmth, peace and love.


  14. oh i am so, so sorry. i wish like anything that this wasn't happening. such, such b.s. when i miscarried-the time i was most pregnant....k called it a "kick in the balls." isn't that the perfect sentiment.

    dear universe,
    please quit kicking my friend while she is down. I mean, REALLY!?!?
    yours truly,