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Thursday, April 8, 2010

Pass or Fail?

On Monday, at my 24 week appointment, I had the 1 hour glucose tolerance test.

Up until yesterday at 4:30pm, I was really hoping that no news was good news.

I was wrong.

Yup, I failed the 1 hour.

My blood level needed to be 139 or below. I clocked in at 155.

On Monday, I'll head back to the office bright and early for the 3 hour test.

I knew there was a chance, especially because I'm overweight and carrying twins. I didn't have a problem with Miss O., so I was hoping that would be the case again.

What I didn't expect was to be so upset by the news...

For some reason, hearing that I failed threw my mind into a tailspin. All I could think of were very negative thoughts. I immediately started to get mad at my body and thinking the worst case scenario.

Why was my body failing me again?

All those horrible self image thoughts left over from the 4 years of struggling to conceive these babies returned. The scars from my all my losses bubbled open, fresh with new worries.

24 hours later, I'm feeling better.


I've managed to shove down those thoughts for now, and I'm focusing on the next test. I'll hold onto the fact that most people who fail the 1 hour, go on to pass the 3 hour.

Fingers crossed that I'm one of them.

14 comments:

  1. I passed the 1 hr with my first two kids, and failed with Isaac. But, I went in for the 3 hr and passed with flying colors! I'll pray its the same for you!

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  2. Don't a lot of people fail the one hour, but pass the 3 hour? I think I read that somewhere. :)

    I'm also overweight, and have a family history of diabetes, so I'm thinking the odds are against me.

    My 1 hour test is on the 23rd. I was going to go a few weeks ago, but the doc said to wait until 28 weeks. Crossing my fingers that I'll pass.


    Good luck with you on your 3 hour.

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  3. I've got the GD odds stacked against me in a serious way. I'm already anticipating that I'll fail it when I take it next week. I'm really sorry that it's so upsetting for you, but you're growing TWO babies. And they need insulin, and so they take it from you, and then you don't have enough. I know it feels like your body failed, but it's just a sign that your body is doing what it's supposed to, which is taking care of the babies first and you second.

    And you're right that you'll probably pass the three hour test. And even if you don't, even though the diet sucks, it's temporary, and a means to an end, right?

    I'm really hoping that you pass the three hour without incident-- I'll be sending my best "balanced sugar" vibes your way!!

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  4. I was marginal this time with Camille and I know how hard I took it:-( It seems too much to ask to have a simple, easy pregnancy...

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  5. I barely made it by like 2 points. Made me upset too.

    Here's to flying colors on the 3 hour! Fingers crossed

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  6. Im one of those people--failed 1 hr and passed 3 hour. Hope it goes well!

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  7. I failed both and have gestational diabetes. I cried on and off for a week because I felt like such a failure. It is not fun at all being pregnant and not being able to eat what you want.

    It is not easy to deal with. I will have my fingers crossed that you pass but if you don't, I am here for any questions and support.

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  8. I was so bitter. I had GD with my first baby, but I hadn't had trouble conceiving her, so while I was annoyed, I wasn't pissed at the universe. This time, after the losses and the IF, I was diagnosed at 9 weeks. 9 WEEKS. They didn't even bother to DO the 3 hour test because my 1 hour number was so awful. Which meant 31 weeks of diet and food rationing. It sucked, and I was angry--really, truly angry at my body. But in the end, it controlled my weight gain, and when my baby was born healthy, it gave me a new appreciation for what my body could do, even if I was angry for making it so hard. You'll probably pass the 3 hour, but remember (as a pp said) that two babies are stealing your insulin, so it's not really your body's fault--it's their placenta's fault. Blame it! Hang in there and good luck.

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  9. This post reminds me of when I met JJ. We didn't know each other well yet, but we took the test on the same day. I passed, she failed, so I vowed to comment and keep in touch with her during her 3 hour test. This is how we became friends. It was a nice surprise during a crappy situation. Hoping the 3 hour test brings some fun & surprising news for you other than you passing. :)

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  10. Good luck to you with the 3 hour test, and keep trying to hold a good thought. Hang in there!

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  11. Hey sweetie,

    I will be posting about the glucose test sometime this week. I failed the 1 hour test at 24 weeks (needed 140, was at 152). I was really surprised and upset about it. Fortunately the hospital was able to get me in the following day for the 3 hour glucose tolerance test. Fortunately I passed. Since then, I've heard several people have similar experiences.

    Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. GOOD LUCK!!!!

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  12. Thinking of you.

    I failed the one hour and passed the three hour. Hope it is the same for you.

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  13. Good luck! I failed the 1 hour, as well. I hope everything goes ok.

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