Monday, January 5, 2009

Wrapping up 2008... 2009!

I have started and stopped this post more times that I care to admit. It's now five days into the new year, and I figure I better stop nit-picking and just post it.

2008 started out as THE year. It ended up being just A year.

Here's a recap.

January: I had just survived a merger, minus quite a bit of pay, but hey, I had a job! Also, started seeing an RE...plenty of hope to go around.

February: IUI #1 cancelled due to dominant follies on the left side.

March: Full speed ahead, beautiful follies on my right side. Trigger shot, and 2, count 'em, 2 IUI's a day a part. How could this NOT work?

April: IUI = BFN. Boo! A trip to the land of Mouse helps lessen the pain.

May: No IUI again. Hello, left ovary...stop being an overachiever, please. Oh, and I hate my new job duties.

June: RE break. Start training for a sprint triathlon. We're going to do this naturally, it's happened before, it can happen again, right? Start acupuncture to help that along.

July: Complete my first sprint triathlon. Find a few weeks of appreciation for what my body can do, before I get another BFN and failed cycle.

August: Another month of acupuncture, another beautiful chart, another BFN. Are you kidding me?

September: New position at work...loving it! Have to give up the acupuncture, though, can't get to an appointment.

October: Yup, you guessed it, a BFN.

November: After a 44 day cycle with many, many BFN's and a negative beta, I realize that it's been a full year since I've seen those two pink lines.

December: Miss O gets sick, M. gets sick, I get sick. Just before the holidays, we are all finally better.

So, one year later, I'm no closer to another child, than I was at this time last year. But, I have found a wonderful community of people who get it. Who understand what the struggle is. Some who've overcome the odds and give me such hope.

And for that I am extremely thankful.


  1. One certain thing about IF is that you can't go through it unchanged. All I hope is that this season of our lives produces more compassion and sincerity than bitterness and anger. Here's to another year, and maybe, maybe, a baby...

  2. 2008 stank, plain and simple. Looking forward to 2009 and hoping for all of us that this is THE year!