I was wrong.
The truth is I'm tired. Really tired. Taking a nap twice a day tired.
My mind is going a mile a minute with things that need to be done, yet I can't seem to get off the couch. I guess that's okay, as I'm supposed to rest. It's just frustrating for me.
Saturday was a really rough day.
It was the first day that Miss O. was with me all day, therefore being stuck at home, ALL day long.
She did really well the first part of the day, watching TV, playing barbies, entertaining herself. After lunch, we played a few board games, some Wii, and she colored a little.
Then 4 o'clock hit.
All she wanted to do was go outside and play. It was SO hot this weekend. I tried to explain that Mommy needed to stay inside. She didn't want to hear it.
She ended up in tears.
I ended up in tears.
It was the first time this entire pregnancy that I felt like I was taking something away from her...that she was suffering because of M. and my choice to expand our family.
I wasn't ready for the feelings of inadequacy that bubbled up. That I couldn't be the Mom she wanted, needed me to be. Doubt started to creep in...what have we done?
As I was sobbing on the couch, M. called to check on us from work. He listened to my blubbering and told me it would be okay.
Five minutes after we hung up, he called back to tell me to get Miss O. ready to go to the park. He had called his mother and she was coming to take Miss O. for dinner and some fun.
I am SO lucky to have such a loving husband.
Miss O. had a great evening, and I spent the few hours reading without worry.
Headed in to see the doctor yesterday...
Blood pressure was 112 over 75. Yay!
Lost 3 pounds in the last week, probably water weight, as I'm not nearly as swollen as I was.
Had an ultrasound, babies looked great and were estimated to weigh 3 pounds, 9 ounces, and 3 pounds 10 ounces. I was SO happy with that! Surprisingly, they have both changed up their positions...Baby A has been head down for at least the last 2 months, she's now in a breech position. Baby B has moved from being breech on my left side, back to laying across, or transverse the top of my uterus.
I guess sitting on my butt is paying off...I'm still shooting for 38 weeks and 6 pound babies!