It's such a fluid thing.
Minutes can creep by, while hours sometimes pass in the blink of an eye.
The last few days, I've alternated between wanting to meet these two little ones and begging for them to have more time inside of me.
When they are both moving around, kicking, I try to store away every movement, how it feels in a little corner of my brain. Let's face it, this is probably the last time I'll ever be pregnant...I want to memorize every feeling, store the memories away for later.
Pain changes my perspective.
When the heartburn, lower back aches, or pelvic pain kicks in, I find my mind thinking about the end. I imagine holding the two of them in my arms, looking at their sweet little faces. I look forward to having my body back as my own...not that it's going to look the same, but to have control over it. I want to see my feet, wear my wedding rings, have a cup of coffee, if I so desire.
I can't control time, and I'm sure once they are here I'm going to feel the same way. Some days I'll want to fly by and others I'll want to freeze and keep forever.
Either way, it won't be long now...