...but failing miserably.
I want to exercise, really I do.
It's been over a year since I've stepped into a gym. I was sidelined during our cycle last year as a precaution. Once we got our positive test, I was discouraged for the first 12 weeks because of my history of pregnancy loss.
At 12 weeks, my OB said I could swim or walk slowly, but to really watch my heart rate and be smart about it.
Honestly, I was so happy to make it to 12 weeks, exercise really wasn't high on my list. I did take evening walks at least 3 times a week, but I didn't want to push it.
Once May hit, bed rest started and that was the end of the small amount of exercise I was doing.
In September, at my 6 week postpartum appointment, I was cleared to resume all activities...including exercise.
I've yet to do it.
All kinds of excuses have popped into my head. "The babies aren't on a schedule yet.", "I don't have time." "Sleep ranks higher, right now." "I don't want to leave the babies in childcare.", "I'm exhausted."
The truth is I'm scared.
Even with 57 pounds gone from my frame, hardly any of my pre-baby clothes fit. The baby weight may be gone, but my body is VERY different. I need to go, because I really miss the mental lift I would get from exercising.