To Work or NOT to work, continued....
As I expected, I got a wide range of comments to my last post, which is exactly what I wanted.
Some of you gave me great, valid points that I hadn't even thought about.
Best of all, it didn't become a debate over which was better!
When we found out we were carrying twins, I immediately figured that working full time would be done. M. felt the same.
There are really 2 things holding me back from saying I'm definitely done after the babies come.
One is health insurance.
We are currently on my insurance plan. M.'s costs more and has a higher deductible. Of course, with mine changing on June 1st....it remains to be seen who's really is better.
The second is fear.
What if I don't end up end with 2 babies?
(After seeing that down in writing, I realize it looks ridiculous...)
Honestly, though, I still struggle with horrible, morbid thoughts.
I guess that's what struggling for over 4 years and losing 5 pregnancies will do to you.
Over the entire time, we tried to conceive these babies, I often felt relief that I did return to work after having Miss O. I don't know how I would have not gone crazy from obsessing about a sibling, if I hadn't at least been distracted sometimes with work.
Ultimately, I think we can pull it off, if I don't want to return. We already shop pretty smart, and try to live off M.'s income for the most part.
Ever since I took a 25% pay cut 3 years ago to keep a job, we've really just used my income for extras. A trip here, home improvements, and of course, IF treatments.
Will we have to make changes? Absolutely.
Will we survive? Yes.
No answer for today, but I do feel a little better about the whole thing.
30 weeks today.
Appointment and ultrasound on Monday.