To Work or NOT to work, continued....
As I expected, I got a wide range of comments to my last post, which is exactly what I wanted.
Some of you gave me great, valid points that I hadn't even thought about.
Best of all, it didn't become a debate over which was better!
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When we found out we were carrying twins, I immediately figured that working full time would be done. M. felt the same.
There are really 2 things holding me back from saying I'm definitely done after the babies come.
One is health insurance.
We are currently on my insurance plan. M.'s costs more and has a higher deductible. Of course, with mine changing on June 1st....it remains to be seen who's really is better.
The second is fear.
Capital F-E-A-R.
What if I don't end up end with 2 babies?
(After seeing that down in writing, I realize it looks ridiculous...)
Honestly, though, I still struggle with horrible, morbid thoughts.
I guess that's what struggling for over 4 years and losing 5 pregnancies will do to you.
Over the entire time, we tried to conceive these babies, I often felt relief that I did return to work after having Miss O. I don't know how I would have not gone crazy from obsessing about a sibling, if I hadn't at least been distracted sometimes with work.
Ultimately, I think we can pull it off, if I don't want to return. We already shop pretty smart, and try to live off M.'s income for the most part.
Ever since I took a 25% pay cut 3 years ago to keep a job, we've really just used my income for extras. A trip here, home improvements, and of course, IF treatments.
Will we have to make changes? Absolutely.
Will we survive? Yes.
No answer for today, but I do feel a little better about the whole thing.
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30 weeks today.
*happy dance*
Appointment and ultrasound on Monday.
I like working, but don't feel like I can do it all well. I'm at a crossroads and not sure what we'll be doing, but after a year away from work I feel pretty confident that I can find ways to maintain my skills and identity without working fulltime.
ReplyDeleteGood luck and congratulaitons!
Yeah for 30 weeks!! I think you'll only be able to make a real decision after the babies come to be honest. Thanks so much for your support on my blog, pet! Fran
ReplyDeleteI couldn't imagine working with twins and a toddler. Holy moly. :) I am only working about 8 hours a week from home, sometimes more, sometimes less.
ReplyDeleteYay for 30 weeks!
ReplyDeleteYea, the insurance was definitely a factor for us. It's amazing the cost difference for adding the twins between the two of our plans.
Yay for 30 weeks!
ReplyDeleteYou have time before you have to make a decision *hugs*
Doing the happy dance with you! 30 weeks!! YAY!!!
ReplyDeleteHooray for 30 weeks!
ReplyDeletehappy 30 weeks!!
ReplyDeleteYAY for 30 weeks. Hope the u/s went well.
ReplyDeleteKeep those crazy thoughts out of your head missy.
You're in the home stretch! No matter what happens, those babies will be loved and cherish:-)
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